Tulle & Fury // Deteriorating Mental Health and Entrepeneurship

Tulle & Fury // Deteriorating Mental Health and Entrepeneurship

Three months ago I started to feel depressed; you know the kind of slow dread that works its ways into your bones? That was me. I finally recognized the culprits, so I stopped checking the headlines first thing in the morning, I took Facebook and other social media apps off of my phone, and something spectacular happened because of it. I felt better. I liked getting up in the morning. I didn’t feel the creeping anxiety of wondering who else was going to lose rights, livelihoods, or lives that day. Ignorance was freaking bliss. The world didn’t stop. Shitty things kept happening, but I stopped finding out about them.

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How Instagram Encourages Comparison and Worsens Anxiety and Depression

How Instagram Encourages Comparison and Worsens Anxiety and Depression

As a S.A.D. sufferer, summer is typically my jam. There is plenty of sun, which means plenty of Vitamin D. I thrive at the beach, and I live in jean shorts. It’s really my ideal state. Except that depression and anxiety know no seasons, and comparison isn’t reserved for the cold months. Recently, an artist I follow on Instagram posted an illustration and said, “is reverse SAD a thing?” I always look to summer to lighten my moods, but I find sometimes, like this summer, specifically, I have spent a lot of time feeling pretty shitty about what I don’t possess or what I’m not doing, or about the beach pics I am not sharing with the Instagram followers I don’t have. Because, suffice it to say, nothing is sufficient in the comparison game.

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Autostraddle Stories // Self-Care is Political Warfare

Autostraddle Stories // Self-Care is Political Warfare

Just over a year ago, I finished a senior undergraduate honors thesis about self-care as an anti-capitalist act. As part of my thesis, I created and released a zine version of my outlined arguments, written in first person, with stories of my own experiences with depression as an activist. Ever since then, friends and acquaintances have looked to me as some sort of self-care expert, as though I must have it all figured out—after all, I spent a year spending about 50% of my waking hours thinking about self-care, didn’t I? Unfortunately, one of the (ironic) results of releasing this zine was that I now have difficulty being as honest about my mental health as I was before.

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Dealing with Depression as an Entrepreneur

Dealing with Depression as an Entrepreneur

As an entrepreneur, I spend a lot of time alone. I also spend a lot of time on social media and on websites that do similar things to mine. On days like today, when I’m feeling a special kind of self-loathing and masochism, I like to troll the internet for everyone and everything that is doing better than me. Comparison is not necessarily the thief of my joy today, just my sanity. So, the downward spiral begins. Because I have so, so much to do, but I actually cannot get it done. So, rather than do what’s best and step away from work, I force myself to sit here.

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